We were never supposed to make it this far
Not us, not meant to be 25, still breathing, still capable of memory
The pressures were supposed to have crushed us by now
The world was supposed to have swallowed us whole
We never planned to live this long
Our goals became hazy after 22
Regardless, we’re still here for the thrill
The excitement of building ourselves up
Just to burn it all down.
People always tell you not to linger on the past. The idea is to move forward and since theirs nothing new in the past it should be left alone. But what if you dropped something important along the way? What if examining your past is the only way you can understand your present? Our memories reveal a lot about who we are. What we choose to remember and what we choose to forget defines us.
I remember being different. My memories reveal things I may not have written about yet, things that seem like tiny specks of thought but when more closely examined, had more of an impact on me then I could imagine.
So now I begin the task of reexamining my past. Somewhere along the way I lost myself. Through these stories and prose I hope to find that.
I have decided to remove all of my creative non fiction off of Tumblr.
I want to focus on writing my second book. I want to make it as strong as possible which means organizing and editing the writing I already have. This second book is going to be a lot more in depth, a lot more of me. Right now I just feel like I need to disappear for a little while, hide away until I’ve completed the task at hand.
I’ll still be using Tumblr to post quotes, pictures and music that helps inspire me everyday. Maybe I’ll throw in a little fiction writing now and again as well.
Haven’t written in awhile so I thought I’d give everyone a little update.
I feel like my writing has become repetitive. I’m creatively drained so I’ve shifted my attention to other things. Like my photography and blogging.
I have my own photography studio in the city where I’ve been working at building up my portfolio and getting my name out there. Most of my current work can be seen at ashnycolephotography.com
I’ve also started my own blog. I have so many things I want to write about but wanted to keep this Tumblr separate. My Tumblr is more of my internal thoughts, prose and things that inspire me. The blog is current events, style & entertainment news. Check it out ashnycoleblogs.com
Other than that I’m just living and exploring. Hopefully my urge to write will resurface soon. All I ask is to have patience with me.